in a mess

PAP was over but i can feel my whole life was in a mess....lots of topics to catch up, reports piling up n i can feel myself out of breath every now n then....cny is juz two days away but exams are around the corner as well....n i can feel da tension building up in me dat im afraid that i cant hold it any longer....im on da verge of breaking down...there's sumthing other than studies dat bug me dat i can feel myself going crazy anytime right now...n im aware of dat....so now da only thing i can do is to get control of my messy life n most importantly my emotions....constantly reminding myself to get grip of myself, nvr slipping away n be brave....wil hav to get back on my feet asap n will take dis cny break as a transition point...there wil be no turning back...

mv shooting....

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so here i am, tired AGAIN....yesterday was like going around setapak till 2pm....woke up at 6am...im tired as a dog ....n today, i went for a cny mv shooting....woke up early again..my whole body aches..feel like shattering...mv shooting im toking bout here is not wad u think - breath-taking views, high-tech production cameras, huge crews....nah, it's juz a shoot for our hostel cny activity wif a small mini production crew- a group fo less than 10? camera? erm typical cameras, not da one u hav to put on ur shoulder like u hav seen in any 'the making of..'.....though tired, but i think it's great...n fun....hehe....we shoot at titiwangsa lake there...then a playground sumwhere around....wif ppl jogging around, taichi-ing, n walking around...it's kinda weird n embarassing to be making a scene there..wif many pairs of eyes looking...get me real self-conscious n nervous hehe..but later, get used to it n dun giv a damn bout it..haha...we play around and reali enjoy every bit of it....gosh, im not going to elaborate more on it..im juz too tired to tap my fingers on da keyboard..will be having another shoot at1pm....but kinda anticipating the music video after they finish editing it...i think it will be great...hehe k..til then..tata