If I Were A Boy - Beyonce Knowles

If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guysAnd chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it'
Cause they stick up for me
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her'
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone
I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come homeI
f I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her'
Cause I know how it huts
When you lose the one you wanted'
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong
But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy

relieved eventuali....

yesterday, my mum finally picked up my blood test n it turned out not to be satisfying..there were few parts highlighted, meaning not within da normal range…kinda worried neh…n dis is only when I will start blaming myself for not doing any exercise…..haih….on da report, it said dat I got wad relative lymphocytosis, as in my level of lymphocytes is slightly higher than normal n my monocytic level is nil…my level of basophils is kinda beyond normal as well…slightly high a bit..in short, the white blood cell levels are out of order..haih…kinda worried neh n I will start imagining da worst…n all those serious diseases come popping into my head…I even imagine all those medications and syringes dat I hate da most..sobsob….reali v afraid n worried neh…plus at da same time, I hav my period n my whole body feel super unwell neh…with my shoulders, arms n legs ache….coupled up with my excruciating menstrual cramp n throbbing headache, haih, make me wanna go crazy neh…..
anyway, juz consulted dr n he told me dat evtg was normal cos my total WBC is still within da normal level…my RBC level is oso normal n since both RBC n WBC are morphologically normal, so there is ntg to be worried bout…kinda relieved at last…guess I hav to start exercise dy…reali learnt my lesson ady…

home sweet home...

Cant believe i hav long deserted my blog for like nearly 5months neh...hehe lazy to update ar...plus ntg special n interesting in my evday life other than eat, sleep, study, perhaps a little shopping or watching movies during da weekends....dats all....ntg special....so do not update often....hmm....bac in bintulu ady...doin ntg at home other than being a couch potato....waiting for @joy to cum bac...haiz....stil a long way to go neh....it seems dat both my laopos r having finals neh....so who's in btu at da moment?? guess i hav to spend my holidays at home...hehe...reading novels is kinda bored n tiring at times esp if u read like da whole day....watching too much telly will only make u feel more tired n lazy....plus im totalli outdated ady...no idea wad's da latest showbiz gossips...if u ask me to watch dramas, its like i hav to start in da middle of nowhere n struggle to put together the broken fragments to get a flowing storyline...lol plus some dramas r still on n it's aired like even be4 i left...now im bac n it's stil airing...wad type of dramas will be dat long other than my mum's all time favourite - hokkien dramas...OMG....its like reaching 200++ episodes n my mum is still following every episode of it..if u dare to touch da remote during her 'tv' time, u better watch out..lol she will nag u to switch to her channel although it's commercial break...duh....dun understand...reali siao ar...so long n lo-so as well....haiz....k la....too much on my complains...gtg...:)

in a mess

PAP was over but i can feel my whole life was in a mess....lots of topics to catch up, reports piling up n i can feel myself out of breath every now n then....cny is juz two days away but exams are around the corner as well....n i can feel da tension building up in me dat im afraid that i cant hold it any longer....im on da verge of breaking down...there's sumthing other than studies dat bug me dat i can feel myself going crazy anytime right now...n im aware of dat....so now da only thing i can do is to get control of my messy life n most importantly my emotions....constantly reminding myself to get grip of myself, nvr slipping away n be brave....wil hav to get back on my feet asap n will take dis cny break as a transition point...there wil be no turning back...

mv shooting....

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so here i am, tired AGAIN....yesterday was like going around setapak till 2pm....woke up at 6am...im tired as a dog ....n today, i went for a cny mv shooting....woke up early again..my whole body aches..feel like shattering...mv shooting im toking bout here is not wad u think - breath-taking views, high-tech production cameras, huge crews....nah, it's juz a shoot for our hostel cny activity wif a small mini production crew- a group fo less than 10? camera? erm typical cameras, not da one u hav to put on ur shoulder like u hav seen in any 'the making of..'.....though tired, but i think it's great...n fun....hehe....we shoot at titiwangsa lake there...then a playground sumwhere around....wif ppl jogging around, taichi-ing, n walking around...it's kinda weird n embarassing to be making a scene there..wif many pairs of eyes looking...get me real self-conscious n nervous hehe..but later, get used to it n dun giv a damn bout it..haha...we play around and reali enjoy every bit of it....gosh, im not going to elaborate more on it..im juz too tired to tap my fingers on da keyboard..will be having another shoot at1pm....but kinda anticipating the music video after they finish editing it...i think it will be great...hehe k..til then..tata